“Was Harry sober on that party or not?” I had a little hope that he’d been so drunk he couldn’t even control what he was doing. Niall took a long pause before he answered my question.
“Yes… he was completely sober” he had a weird look on his face when he gave me the answer. It was like he was trying to hide something, but I couldn’t figure out what it was.

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We’d both gotten really lost in our own thoughts and the whole situation felt kind of sad, so I figured I should try to light both him and myself up a bit.
“So, now that I’m all alone here in London, I haven’t really got any plans. Would you fancy hanging out with me for a couple of hours?” I fluttered with my eyelashes in a teasing way. “Just if you don’t have any important work to do, though”. Sometimes I almost forgot that Niall was in a band, because he seemed so carefree and grounded.
He seemed to like my idea, because he said yes right away.
“I can’t hang out too late, though, because we’ve got a very important show tomorrow.” Damn it, I’d almost forgot that. One Direction were going to perform their debut single “What Makes You Beautiful” live for the first time ever, on the TV show Red Or Black. That was one of the main reasons me and Harry had decided that this weekend was perfect for me to come for a visit, because then I could come and watch them perform.
 

Niall and I went outside and we decided to go sightseeing, because even though I’d been in London a lot, he knew the city better than I did. The time just flew by and I hadn’t laughed this much in what felt like forever. We just walked around the city, ate ice cream and fooled around for hours. We even got stalked by some fans, so after Niall had posed for some pictures and signed their stuff, we had to sneak through a few alleys to get rid of them. All the times I spent with Niall made me realize how much I missed spending time with a guy. I mean, not like a boyfriend guy, but like a buddy. The past weeks had been so messed up and stressful, I’d barely had time to spend with my guy friends and I hadn’t really cleared up things with Nick yet either. Niall was definitely the type of guy that I would be friends with and he seemed to enjoy hanging out with me as well.
 

We were just messing around in Hyde Park, playing football, when Niall checked his phone.
“Oh shit, it’s almost 11 PM! I have to get back to my apartment or else Paul will kill me if I’m tired tomorrow.”
“Well, then you’ll have to go right away, because if he kills you, it will be my fault!” I laughed and we started walking back towards Oxford Street.
“I’m such a gentleman, so I’ll follow you back to your hotel, though” I offered and I didn’t deny, because I wasn’t a hundred percent sure of the way back to the hotel. We just continued chatting while we walked and within a few minutes we were standing by the stairs at my hotel.
“So thank you for spending some of your precious time with me today” I bantered, knowing he wouldn’t take it personal.
“Hahah.. well, I actually had a really great time! So thanks for hanging out with me, too” he smiled at me and then he added “umm and yeah, I know stuff have been really tough between you and Harry lately, but your invitation to the Red Or Black show tomorrow still stands, I guess. If you figure out you want to go anyway”. I told him I wasn’t fully sure yet, but that I would think about it and he gave me his phone number so that I could call him if I needed someone to get me in for free.


“Goodbye, see ya” I said and was about to turn around and walk up the stairs to the hotel, when he took my arm and drew me back.
“That’s not a real goodbye” he whispered and kissed me carefully on the lips. At first I was so caught by surprise I just stood there like a moron, but when I realized what he was doing I pulled back immediately.
“No… Niall.. I can’t… it’s not like that..” I stuttered. Damn it, why did my life have to be such a mess right now?
“I.. I’m sorry.. I didn’t think through that..” he murmured and his cheeks went red. “Just forget about it.. this never happened. See ya”. Then he turned around and almost sprinted away, without even looking back. I just stood there with my jaw on my knees for a few minutes, until people started staring and I pulled myself together and walked inside the hotel.
 

When I got to the hotel room I had to clear my head, so I stripped all my clothes off and went straight into the shower. With the water streaming down my body, I started thinking. What the hell was going on in my life right now? I’d gone here to get a break from everything, not to make it an even bigger mess. I still kind of had feelings for Harry, though, and I just considered Niall a friend. If I knew he thought differently about us, I wouldn’t have asked him to hang out with me in the first place. Maybe I should just pack my stuff and go home right away? Of course I couldn’t, it was almost 12 AM. At least I had to wait until the morning and reconsider it then.
I was just done drying my hair, and I lay down on the bed to check my twitter before I went to sleep. To be honest, I wasn’t really into this whole twitter thing, but my friends had forced me into making an account and after I met Harry I’d been using it a bit more often as well. He and the rest of the band were totally addicted and they used their twitters to keep in touch with all the fans. I was just scrolling through my timeline when the trends caught my attention. What the heck!? Was the first thought that hit my mind. In the list of trends two names shone towards me, “Harry and Susann” was trending #1 worldwide.